( This post is part of a 1st of the month awareness campaign for CSS to try to make more people aware CSS and Vasculitis which hopefully will lead to earlier diagnosis)
An amazing thing happened today, I sat on my porch and watched a humming bird eat from a feeder. I saw him drink and swallow. I sat there quietly and still and enjoyed watching him come back for more over and over again. I thought back to eight years ago and how hectic my life was and how I would have never been able to enjoy this simple pleasure. I thought about how much my life has changed and what my turning point was. I thought about the what if’s and the maybe’s but to tell you the truth I am finally content in all that I am and all that I have become in those eight years.
My name is Suzanne D, aka Karen in Wonderland and 8 years ago I was diagnosed with Churg Strauss Syndrome (CSS) which was renamed Eosinophilic Granulomatosis with Polyangiitis (EGPA) last year. CSS is still used by most patients because by the time we say, “Eosinophilic Granulomatosis with Polyangiitis “ most people will have left the room. Many of us refer to ourselves as, “Churgies”, a cute name for an insidious ailment.
Churg Strauss Syndrome is a form of Vasculitis. It affects both small and medium blood vessels and there is NO CURE. We become members of this elite Churg Strauss club which only has 2-3 new members for every million people that walk this earth. We find ourselves as outcasts by both our friends and family who can not comprehend why we can’t just, ‘get over it or be cured’ and our doctors who all too often google Churg Strauss Syndrome 5 minutes before they enter the exam room.
If you are ‘lucky’ enough to get a CSS diagnosis before it damages major organs in your body, consider yourself fortunate. Most patients do not since most doctors have only read about it in a textbook. Many of us are told we have anxiety, acid reflux, allergic rashes or food allergies during stage one. During stage two, most of those inflicted know deep down that there is something wrong but getting a doctor to listen and put the puzzle pieces together is the hardest thing. We become a puzzle, a medial mystery, a case that belongs on Dr House, MD by the time we reach stage three. Many of us are only diagnosed by the time some organ damaged has occurred. Many people with CSS are not diagnosed till too much damage has been done and their chances of survival are slim. I get very angry knowing that lives are lost due to the lack of awareness of CSS on the part of doctors, medical personal, and the general public.
We can be saved with quicker diagnosis and the induction of proper treatment. The survival rate is very high when proper treatment is started. We survive but we are not cured… but with proper follow-up and a cocktail of toxic meds we go on to live our lives. These lives are never the same as before. We have less energy and because of the meds we take we end up with brittle bones, weight gain, diabetes, heart problems, kidney problems and breathing issues. But, we do live life… we learn to adjust to our new normal and sometimes learn that watching hummingbirds is a new pleasure in life.
PLEASE take a minute and learn about Churg Strauss Syndrome and Vasculitis by clicking on the following links. Educate yourself so that you can spot it and support friends and loved ones. Kevin died of CSS when with early diagnosis he might have been saved. PLEASE stand up to your doctors if you think you have CSS vasculitis and go to a major vasculitis center as soon as you can for proper treatment.
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I am working very hard at getting most of this website and the connecting Face Book page up in running in time for a very special post tomorrow and the official launch of this website and blog.
Please bear with me as I add content and get all my intended links up and running. It takes time and even more when you are doing it with a cast on your hand and arm. Yes, I guess I was feeling like Green Acres and decided that the back of a tractor was the place to be… My body thought otherwise and gravity won as I landed on the ground. Broke my wrist and my pride, so now I have to learn to type with a cast on.
At least I took this as an opportunity to add some bling.
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Trust me I am asking myself the same thing. What makes me special? Why do I think people might be interested in things I have to say and share? I have no quick answer to those questions but I can share that I enjoy the writing process and get great joy out of putting my thoughts and ideas out there in the world for other people to read, enjoy and possibly come to new understandings.
I am a trained teacher, a chef, a mother and a never-ending student of life. I battle life every day on many different fronts and believe our experiences in life, both the good and the bad make us who we are.
I believe in living life without regrets. A motto I claimed as my own after an unexpected turn in my life’s journey. I don’t believe in straight lines in life. I believe we go through a series of twist, curves and spirals. Some times our paths lead to something else, sometimes we learn from these paths and sometimes we cut our loses and go back to the nearest intersection to try again.
This web page and blog is a new journey for me… a new path.
Please join me for this new pathway and hopefully we can become life long friends.
Suzanne (aka Karen in Wonderland)
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